Part 6 - Memories

The next day I woke up to a message from Khalid: "I'm aching to see you, I miss you so much".

All of the sudden a horrible flash back started playing in my head. I couldn't remember every second, but it was like pieces of a memory playing one after another.

"Khaloooody give me your phone, I'm bored. I want some good reading material hahah"

"Habla! Hahah here 7abeebty. I come all the way to New York to visit you and you're bored in the first 15 minutes I see you! Ouchhhh" he said as he kissed my head and went to get himself breakfast.

I loved reading his messages.  Not because I didn't trust him. Because I loved to see what was going on in his life.  Khalid was not just my boyfriend, he was my best friend.  My other half.

We had been away from each other so long, I wanted to catch up with the little things I missed. And I loved making fun of the way his friends talked and stuff to him.  I loved that he knew I was crazy and accepted it. He'd sit and laugh with me over the weirdest things.

I sat in the couch in his hotel room. It was so cozy. I loved being there with him, just the two of us. My family was in the hotel next to his. I had just came over to see him. It made me excited, thinking this is what it will be like to travel together once we're married and on vacation.  I was so excited to have a life with him.

*Outgoing message* "I'm aching to see you, I miss you so much" ...I never received this?

*Incoming message* "Heheh me too! I can't believe I haven't seen you in so long!"

*Outgoing message* "Come visit me, I need to see you."

*Incoming message* "Mmmm. I'd love to! But where will I stay?"

*Outgoing message* "With me of course"

*Incoming message* "On the bed or the couch? ;)"

*Outgoing message* "That's up to you."

I couldn't believe what I was reading.  I knew this girl had a crush on him from a long time ago. They used to like each other, but they were kids.  It was nothing. She had hit on him a few times lately, I'd seen the messages.  But he never seemed interested. He'd blow her off.

The messages continued and continued and continued like this.  They had been talking non stop for 2 days.  There were hundreds of messages.

..He had never even told me he was "aching to see me."

My breathing suddenly became limited. I had developed an anxiety breathing problem lately, which I would later learn had came from the stress I went through with him.


I knew he loved me, everyone did. You could see it in his eyes and the way he'd act.  But he just never loved me enough.

"Khalid, have you talked to 7anan lately?"

The look on his face went from glowing to about to be sick.  He knew he was in trouble.

"Ummm laish? What are you reading?"  He leaned over and saw what I was reading. He was about to take the phone but I gave him a look saying back off now and he hesitated.

I continued to read the messages in front him, not saying a word until I finished.

We argued and I asked him how he could do this to me.  He turned the fight around on me and made me feel bad for being mad at him.  He refused to let me argue with him and threatened me.


"Jawa! Jawaaa!"

"Huh, sorry Mama. I must have zoned out"

"Hehe yeah I've been calling you forever! Do you want to go to breakfast? Me and the twins found such a cute place yesterday. And we haven't spent any mother daughter time lately, just us."

I really missed spending a lot of time with my mom. We're so close and I love talking to her. I was excited to go to breakfast with her.

We got dressed and headed downstairs.  As we were waiting for the elevator to go down, I looked at my phone and deleted the message from Khalid.  He disgusted me and I was never going to talk to him again.